If you’re a regular reader here or on my Instagram page, you know I like to make up words. Before I moved to Portugal in 2022, I featured Monday’s Midlife Made-Up Word here every week. Now, tune in on the last Friday of every month for a made-up word mashed together from Portuguese, or an English and Portuguese combo. This sometimes happens unintentionally as I continue to learn to speak Portuguese.
April’s made-up word post is a multifaceted mash-up of new words, experiences, photography, and poetry, including my second audio recording. Enjoy!
Caution: Reading this post might cost you your U.S. federal funding.
Desfrustaration
Today’s made-up word is desfrustaration (n): The state of enjoying life while also feeling dissatisfied due to unresolved problems.
Derived from desfrutar (Portuguese for enjoy) and frustration (a feeling of dissatisfaction due to unresolved problems).
Not to be confused with desfrustruction — the act of enjoying destruction.

Thoughts? Suggestions? Let me know in the comments.
Enjoying Life in April
April has been busy with many new experiences to enjoy and a calendar filled with observances.
In Portugal, today is a national holiday. April 25th celebrates Dia da Liberdade (Freedom Day) and the Carnation Revolution that brought an end to Portugal’s dictatorship in 1974.
It is National Poetry Month in the U.S. and April 6-12 was National Library Week there. Earth Day was the 22nd, followed by World Book Day on the 23rd, and this week is International Dark Sky Week, from the 21st to the 28th. These observances honor things that are dear to me and bring enjoyment to life in chaotic times.



Enjoying New Experiences
This month I traveled by car three hours north to hike in Portugal’s only national park, the gorgeous Parque Nacional da Peneda-Gerês, north of Porto near the Spanish border. I also visited the nearby Portuguese city of Braga, and ventured across the border into Spain to check out the natural thermal springs there.
In Lisbon, I enjoyed a four-hour African Lisbon walking tour that told the real story of Portugal’s history. The one you don’t see portrayed in mainstream tourism, school books, or Lisbon’s museums. At the end of the tour, our group shared stories over a delicious dinner of dishes from Senegal and Angola at an African-owned restaurant.


This did not help my fear.





















After all this April excitement, I’m now forcing myself to get ready training for desperately hoping I can manage another new experience — a 60-kilometer bike ride in another northern Portugal city next month. It’s only 36 miles (60 kilometers sounds more impressive, though), but I haven’t been on an outdoor bike in 15 years. I’ve been riding a one-hour hills course on my programmable indoor exercise bike two to three days a week, and my boyfriend bought a heavy AF an electric mountain bike for me, so it’s not stamina I’m worried about. It’s my balance, road traffic, fucking cobblestones, and my fear of heights — which almost did me in at the national park. We’ll see how this goes.
Poetry for Portugal and America
As April draws to a close, I thought I’d give a nod to America’s month of poetry by trying my hand at writing a haiku in Portuguese.

where the sea hugs soul and mind
Finally, I’ll end with a poem by Langston Hughes. Read the entire work on Poets.org, or listen to my reading of the full poem below.

full poem here.

Thank you for reading (and listening)! ❤️ May any desfrustaration this weekend find you with more enjoyment than frustration.
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So much good stuff in your post Natalie. Love your reading of Langston Hughes’ poem. We need to send your reading to a few political leaders. Maybe then they’ll re-evaluate their positions and see how foolish they really are! Oh, I know I’m dreaming. I just find it incredibly sad and powerful that Hughes wrote that in 1936 and it still holds true today. Ugh. Next up, I’m a big fan of “desfrustaration.” I was just thinking that I’m “compartmentalizing” or balancing happiness and worry all the time. Some of the things happening in the news certainly touch on that frustration and happiness. Ha, ha. Finally good luck on your bike ride. You’ve got this! Balance, cobblestones, heights . . . they’ve got nothing on you guys. Have fun and good luck.
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Thank you so much for your comment, Brian. It is a sad commentary on the current state of affairs when this poem by Langston Hughes could have been written in 2025. I’m with you on the happiness-worry balance too.
Fingers crossed on the bike ride, but I think it’ll be OK.
Have a great week!
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You’re certainly making the most of your new home with tours, biking, parks, poetry and photos. Kudos Natalie! 😍
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Thank you, Brad! I’m trying. It’s hard to believe I’ve been here nearly three years and still have much yet to discover.
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You were so good at mashing up new words in English and now you almost have an unfair advantage when you can mash up words using two languages!
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Haha! Thank you, Geoff 😊
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Natalie, your posts always make me feel like I’ve gotten a warm hug! Your travels in April (and photos) look amazing! We took a trip in April and it was a disaster 🥴 No one got hurt but it was still pretty painful and now I’ve come down with a cold! I am ready for April to be GONE! Your haiku is beautiful and I love your voice reading that poem. Scary to see it was written so long ago but applies even more now 😕
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Oh Sharon, thank you! Sending you a hug for what sounds like a challenging month. I’m sorry to hear about your trip and your cold. Here’s to welcoming May this week.
Thank you so much for your kind words! I hope you feel better soon ❤️🌷
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Natalie, your gorgeous photos take me to another place! Literally and figuratively. 😄 Your word is perfectly made up and should be the word of the year! 🌟 Thank you for sharing your beautiful and inspiring self. ✨🙏🏻
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Thank you so much for your kind words, Michele! ❤️ Wishing you a week of enjoyment! 💐
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Thank you,HG! ❤️
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Natalie:
Thank you for sharing this beautiful Langston Hughes poem. I had never read it before. Sadly, the words still ring true in 2025.
Good luck on your biking trip.
Jametta
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Thank you, Jametta ❤️. Yes, sadly, still very true.
I had my first trial run on the mountain bike today and did OK on the rough trail, but those skinny, rickety wooden bridges…😝
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Thank you for pointing to Portugal’s history, Natalie. We need fuller – and accurate – histories of all our countries. Keep enjoying all your adventures and new vistas. Your pictures are glorious.
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Yes, so true, Jane! Thank you for your kind words. Happy you enjoyed the photos. ❤️
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Yes, so true, Jane! Thank you for your kind words. Happy you enjoyed the photos. ❤️
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Are you letting your hair grow out?
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Mais ou menos 😅. My intent is to grow it out but I continually chop pieces off in frustration. We’ll see how long I can go without returning to my easy pixie.
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Luckily, I’m practicing my Spanish, so I knew what you meant 😉
And, aha! I totally get it. We women and our hair. It’s a whole thing.
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Thank word says it all! I was so close to visiting in May.. darn. Your photos are incredible and such fun adventures. I LOVE this poem! Thanks for sharing this wonderful poem! 💗
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Ah, thank you, dear Cindy, for making me smile! ❤️
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You’re so very welcome, always! 💓
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Love that you allow us to enjoy this journey with you! Love the photos!!! Is your hair naturally curly? It looks great
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Thank you! Glad you’re enjoying the photos. Yes, trying to grow out my natural hair…but am this close to cutting it off again 😆. Thank you for the compliment ❤️
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You should keep it, it looks beautiful!!!!
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Thank you! ❤️
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