Sometimes we’re just in a bad mood. Irritated, impatient, grouchy. Do you ever find yourself in one of these funks?
As a midlife woman I know mood swings come with the hormonal fluctuations of menopause, even at 62. But this last week has been something else for me. It was a week where nothing went my way. A string of seemingly never-ending, back-to-back setbacks and disappointments every single day. These are things that “must” get done on a (my) timetable so I can move to Portugal. Leases finalized; remote accounts opened; money transferred while exchange rates are favorable. I’m turning into a vexpat. I knew I would xanifest this. Why are people not getting with the (my) program? Why are they messing up the (my) plan?
Why are people not doing what I want them to do when I want them to do it?
That’s really all my mood is about. My irritation is over “problems” I’m lucky to have — starting a life overlooking the ocean in a new country. Poor me. Stop yer whinin’, girl.
But by not doing what I want them to do now, these people are causing my plan to fail. They are making me fail. I am a failure.
You are not a failure. You’re doing everything you can on your end. You have a solid plan. You cannot control the actions and timing of other people. You are driven and impatient. You are not a failure.
This is not the Friday post I wrote and scheduled for today. Not even close. But when I wrote in my journal this morning this is what came out. See how the
voice asshole in my head turned a series of not-uncommon setbacks and delays into personal failure? No wonder I’ve been in a bad mood.
This is how I checked myself and started a mood rewind, by reminding myself of what’s truly important to me.
Gratitude List ~ Today’s Top 3
- I am grateful for this beautiful life I have created by making choices that are perfect for me.
- I am grateful for all experiences, lessons, and opportunities I’m given today — the good and the bad — for they all help me grow.
- I am grateful for the people in my life who care about me.
Intention List ~ Today’s Top 3
- I will give more than take.
- I will be patient more than impatient.
- I will accept others (and myself) more than judge.
Today’s Quotation to Work On
“If you can’t ask for help without self-judgment, you cannot offer help without judging others.”– Brené Brown
I need to work on trusting people to help me, instead of trying to control what they do and when they do it. This will not be easy for me.
Thank you for reading through this impromptu post fresh from this morning’s journal. When you find yourself in “a mood” how do you recover?
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